Here I am again, on vacation, trying to populate this blog with one more entry. Trying to keep the ball rolling and hoping my thirst for writing more comes back! It's a shame. I don't remember how much writing made me feel sane. Isn't it scary to not feel anything you used to love once? I think I need to write more but I also need time for it. These past few months, I always ask myself how did I ever write so much content in my blog? How did I write poems, stories, whatnots? How did I manage to create things and even collaborated with different people around the world through digital media and endless e-mails? How did I manage to have always an idea in mind?
At 27, I think I need to go back to the time when I was 21 when I told myself that "at 21, I am undecided but just fine". It's true though - I am 27 and I am undecided and fine but I want something more. I want to go to the next step but I don't know what that is. Funny how at 27 I still do not know what I want but I know there has got to be something there. Something that makes life more meaningful.
I have so many things in mind that I want to do and the more I think about those, the more I find myself scattered everywhere. But I can't just let myself stay still in one place - that just ain't right. Therefore I choose to be everywhere and keep it that way because that's how I have lived my life for years now and I am still doing okay, I guess. This is why I am back here again... I am writing again. And I will try to keep stopping by.