As much as you would want to go back to live a life you have known so well, why don't you try to use that time to get to know a different kind of lifestyle. It does not take a month or two. Not even a year, I suppose. Even though sometimes you feel that people are looking at you differently and might be angry at you because you don't know what they know. You’re still figuring stuff out, and that is OK. Move forward. Don't stop moving forward.