Fear is always there. I think the reason why I don't give in easily is fear. The fear to fail, to be laughed at, to be judged. Strangely, I fear being looked at by many people because I'm not comfortable at being in the limelight. Fear, obviously, hinders me from everything.
I may have gotten used to it but there were times when I remember the feeling of it. I don't get why I fear people. I guess, I never want to be judged. If only I could exist without people minding/looking at me. My family is an exception because I trust them and I know them.
I could count all the opportunities I could've grabbed before if only I didn't focused too much on my fears but it would make me sad. As much as possible, I want to forget my regrets. I have to remind myself constantly that I am not the only one with fears. It shouldn't hinder me from what I want and what to try. After all, no one is perfect. We all learn the things that capture us and in learning, we make mistakes -- not once, not even twice.