January 25, 2010


I had never let go of opportunities to know new people who unexpectedly stayed for a long period of time. The people who stayed with me were very special. Though it didn't work out, the memories are still there. Each of them were unique but the same.

I am not trying to erase the memories because I can never do that. Honestly, I tried but I failed. You can never really escape the past. So I taught myself to retain those memories and learn from those experiences instead.

I admit I miss everyone but I guess I should not hold on with those feelings. But if ever I'm going to meet one of them again, I would try to be open to the opportunity to rebuild the relationship. There is always a second chance in every failure.

January 18, 2010

Something Made Different

"Nothing has changed." -- I always say this whenever someone asks me how's my life lately. I make believe that there's nothing really changed ever since. I am still the same Debie as before. My dreams keep on changing maybe that is why I act differently and speak what I believe. In reality, I am stuck with things I never dreamed of. I never got the chance to reach my dreams and even if there were chances, I didn't grab it cos I was too afraid of sacrifices and some people became hindrance most of the time. That sometimes I hate them to the point of blaming them too much.

Maybe I just dream a lot.

Maybe my dreams are too high for me to reach.

Maybe I should quit dreaming and start facing the reality as what it is.

But what is living without having a dream?

Is dreaming good?

Is reality good?

January 15, 2010

Taho 11

Here is a man who has been selling taho for years now. I have been buying his taho every time I wake up from afternoon nap. He sits beside me in the jeepney going to school. He dropped-off a block near my school. Maybe he stays there in the morning and goes to the village where I live in the afternoon. I'm sure he doesn't know me but I have a lot of things to say about him.

Here it goes.

If you look at him, you could feel how tired he is from working everyday by walking along the streets selling one of the best afternoon snacks, for me, at least -- taho. He works for his survival or maybe his family's survival. And I can say that, he really works hard.

He has been journeying along City's streets for a long time now. He has seen the same things everyday that if you'll ask him how the community is, he might answer and describe it more accurately than our leaders today. He could be a better leader if there's a chance.

Every "Tahoooo!", every step he takes, every block he stops over, he gets money. But it isn't enough for him. And since I talked about leadership a while ago, think about those people in our government. Now tell me, who deserves to wipe off the sweat on one's forehead?

These are just some of the things I could relate to him (and to all other taho vendors out there). He maybe just an old man selling taho along the streets but he has a lot of stories to tell. Real stories, not gossips, about life in general.

January 13, 2010

The beauty and existence of something that reminds me of the past

"The leader of the band is tired and his eyes are growing old but his blood runs through my instruments and the song is in my soul. My life has been a poor attempt to imitate the man. I'm just a living legacy to the leader of the band."

This is another midnight when I am supposed to go to bed. The radio never failed to play music which makes me feel nostalgic. As time goes by, I am missing a lot of my parents and I dream of them, too! Memories keep on running in my head every time I go to bed. Then I cry myself to sleep. But it's a good cry.

This time shadows of trees moving on my wall entertain me and I began to appreciate its beauty and existence. In every movement, I can see events from the past. I don't have any idea why it reminds me of the past. It makes me cry sometimes.

January 9, 2010

Hello, Holga!

I just got my new Holga Baby Toy yesterday. (Thank you, Jennie!) And along with the package are 2 110 Fuji films. I am excited to use it and see the results! So far I've only taken 1 shot this morning at school.

This is my first attempt in Lomography. I am going to call this thing "Holga" from the name itself. (Yes, I am fond of giving names to my favorite stuff :P) Looking forward to a wonderful and exciting moments with you, Holga! <3

Should I go out and waste my two rolls of film now? ;)

January 2, 2010


It seems like we waste a lot of time waiting for something to happen. A lot of excuses support the idea of waiting... but who guarantees what's going to happen a year from now, a month from now, a day from now, or even an hour from now.
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