September 13, 2009

A Deep Bottle For Sanity

As soon as it touches my mouth i knew it will taste good enough... well i assumed it will and so it will be..

every toast for every word is true but pretty conditional in the end -conditional because you'll never know if everything will be forgotten the next day or not and we always put our trust on it...

Consumed almost half of it still you're not that drunk... and everything is clear.. you will laugh for a reason.. know your safest way to the restroom.. and youre so much excited to get back to your seat and finish the rest of what you started.. it gives you that smooth feeling.. confident that everything is going your way and you know you're above the rest...

A quarter of it left.. it taste bitter down to your throat.. yes, youre still not drunk but you feel like burning inside.. you feel that cold sweat and everything looks uneasy.. everything you do can now be complicated.. you talk to much and say stupid words most of the time.. you laugh harder over nothing.. worst, it reminds you of how sad you are..

You're holding an empty deep bottle.. everything around you is spinning.. everything you do is wrong.. and you shout for every mistake the other has made.. you slap your face for doing such things and that part hurts so bad even if the rest of your body is numb.. now.. you're in regret.. saying to yourself.. i never would've been tempted.. now, everything tasted so bitter.. i vomit all the good things i had before -- all of those that has made me happy.. and i am stuck in this situation.. headache, heart beating slowly.. and i can't think of anything right...

In the end.. i am only holding this deep empty bottle... reminding me how i wasted my time --knowing it will be good for me.. but as i say.. everything is just a waste of time...

2 comments:

  1. Anonymous5:48 PM

    never regret things that made you happy even just one moment in your life. everything happens for a reason as they say, so be it. you're still young, you have a long journey to take. keep rockin' like a rockstar \m/

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  2. You're right! Thank you very much :) Rock on \m/

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