July 15, 2008
I haven’t cried for a while because I can’t find a reasonable reason (!) for me to cry. I miss crying though. I miss the feeling of missing someone. Sometimes I think I’m naive. I know I miss him but there’s something that stops me from missing him. The past is over, yet I’m still yearning for something to happen between us. I blamed him without proof. I already know what will happen next that time. So, I accused him right away. I don’t want to be the one who’ll suffer, the one who’ll wait for something that doesn't really exist in the first place, the one who’ll look stupid, the one who’ll be laughed at because I’m being serious about it. I know karma will take its place soon. Soon enough! ;( I feel so weak every time I think about it and super annoyed.